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[not_that_lockon]

[filtered to the Doctor;]

Hey, Doctor. Mind if we talk about something?

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[bit_impossible]

If you only heard what she said...you'd have no doubt in your mind that punishment was the only thing she meant to achieve. And ohhhh, I'm well aware of that fact, Lyle Dylandy. That doesn't mean that I have to condone anyone's methods of doing so, especially that of a scared little girl. Especially when that method is through cold-blooded murder.

I'm sorry, I'm so sorry you see me as the bad guy in this, Lyle, but remember that I'm the one trying to prevent death here. I will not stand for anyone else to get hurt or die while I'm here--and that includes every living being on this ship.

[not-that-lockon.livejournal.com]

When did I ever say anything about condoning it?! I'd settle for just trying to understand what she's doing. She's going about it in the only way she knows how, and while I sure as hell don't agree with it, it's no better or worse than some other methods I could think of.

[bit_impossible]

I never said anyth--This is not about you, you fool! You wanted to talk to me about Haruhi and find out why she's been acting strange--and that's what I've been trying to explain! Instead, I'm getting this treatment because I scolded her! The world ends because one person got a slap on the wrist! If she didn't hear it from me, who would've told her that what she was considering is terrible and not to be tolerated, hmm?

"Understanding" doesn't enter into it for me. I've seen far, far too much--and yes, I've seen the results of human experimentation more times than I'd like. The pain, the suffering--all of it! It's all the same and just once I'd like to change that outcome.

And what would you have liked me to have done considering the circumstances, hmm? Stopped my own search for the door and, more importantly, for Ganymede and ruin the one chance I had of getting a hold of that man once and for all?! [never mind he failed there.]

[takes a breath.] What else is there to understand? She's scared--which is such a fantastic state of mind to be in when making decisions, might I add--and doesn't know any better. Or rather didn't as the case may be now since she's avoiding me.

[not-that-lockon.livejournal.com]

Yeah, she's scared. But avoiding you doesn't show that she's learned any better, just that now she's also scared of what might happen if she runs into you.

[bit_impossible]

[frowns severely] Nothing would happen.

[not-that-lockon.livejournal.com]

She doesn't know that. [And in all honesty? Neither do I.]

[bit_impossible]

Nothing would happen. If you think I'm the kind of man who would harm little girls, then you clearly have the wrong impression of me.

[not-that-lockon.livejournal.com]

Then what did you say to her that has her so spooked?

[bit_impossible]

[he's been expecting this question for a while, so there's little hesitation with his answer.] I told her the situation was far more dangerous than she could even imagine. And I forbade her from killing anything...and that I didn't want to hear if she had.

[not-that-lockon.livejournal.com]

[Slight silence here while he processes that... putting two and two together with how much the Doctor seems to hate killing, he probably said it in a way that sounded threatening to her. Oh, what a bloody mess...]

[bit_impossible]

[waits; wondering if what he's said has finally gotten through.]

[not-that-lockon.livejournal.com]

[mutters under his breath]

Maybe you two just need to talk, then. Because whether you meant to or not, Doc, you've got her pretty scared of you.

[bit_impossible]

Scared of me? Or perhaps feeling so guilty, she can't bear to face me?

[not-that-lockon.livejournal.com]

I'm going with the former.

[bit_impossible]

[shakes his head] No, she'd have nothing to be afraid of if she didn't do what I fear she's done.

She's a lot smarter than any of you lot give her credit for. If she was treated like the teenager that she is and not some little child that needs to be coddled every time she scraps her knee, maybe she wouldn't be so scared of being told what she can't do!

[not-that-lockon.livejournal.com]

Being smart and having life experience aren't the same thing.

[bit_impossible]

You don't need either of those to know when you've done something wrong.

Besides, do you think this ship is the place for her to regain some of her lost childhood?

[not-that-lockon.livejournal.com]

If it's even possible for that to happen, I don't see why not. When else is she ever gonna get the chance? We don't even know what'll happen even if we do manage to stop that crazy captain.

[bit_impossible]

[he's not sure either, so he's not going to address that right now.] Many things are possible in this universe, Lyle. But once your childhood is gone, it can never be brought back. Only trying to do so will stunt the growth she needs right now as a teenager and not a child.

[smiles faintly for the first time this entire conversation.] But that doesn't mean you still can't have fun and play games.

[not-that-lockon.livejournal.com]

[sighs] Right...

You will talk to her though, right?

[bit_impossible]

[rubs the back of his neck] Well, not now if all she's going to do is turn tail and run away like I'm some kind of boogeyman.

However...I'll be here when she's ready. I'm not exactly going anywhere.

[not-that-lockon.livejournal.com]

I guess that'll do, then.