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Mind? Nah, why would I mind? Though, I should ask what's on yours?

Haruhi, since you asked.

Ahhhh. [remembers how their last conversation ended.]

Go ahead then.

She's been acting a little strange for the past couple of days, and I was wondering if you knew why.

[he might have an idea, but first, he has to see if she's talked about those anomalies with anyone else.] Strange how? What's she been doing that's different than usual?

[shrugs] She's just been a little quieter than normal is all. [pause] Especially when your name's mentioned.

[blinks for a moment; that certainly isn't what he's expecting to hear] Is she? Has she been feeling ill again?

Why would...?[trails off before he can finish that sentence.]

She says she hasn't been feeling ill, but I'm kinda hoping that you could answer that question for me, Doc.

[frowns] Was she hurt at all during the search for the door and Ganymede and simply hasn't told you?

I think I would have noticed that by now.

[sighs softly. he's exhausted every other option; might as well broach his way into that topic.] Well...a few days ago when Kyon was attacked, did she mention anything about those creatures to you?

[slight pause] ... Not exactly, but I think I have the gist of how much she hates them. Why?

[arches an eyebrow] You only got the gist? Did she tell you what she wanted to do to them?

Not in so many words.

What did she say then, hmm? Did she say that she wanted to kill every single one of them? Or did she neglect to mention that, just like she's neglected to mention that she killed every other person subject to those experiments she had been part of?

[... well he didn't know about the second part but like hell is he going to back down] She didn't have to.

[really doesn't like where this is headed] Didn't have--for what?

I've been out there with her when she's fighting those things, that's why, it doesn't take that much to put two and two together.

Either way, she hasn't got any idea that what she's doing is wrong, and that isn't her fault.

No? Not a single idea whatsoever? Not even a single clue? [looks like everything he said never made its way home, and he's not sure if he's more angry or upset about that.]

I take it then that she never mentioned the argument we got into. Oh yes, I reckon that's exactly what you've been waiting for me to say, isn't it Lyle? Go on. Admit it!

She was raised in a lab to be a weapon, of course she doesn't have any bloody idea! And just for the record, no actually, she didn't mention anything which is why we're having this conversation in the first place.

She has an idea because I told her. I told her she has a choice--she doesn't have to live as an experiment. She can be a normal girl who goes to school, plays with her mates, gossips, and has all sorts of silliness girls her age would get into!

And the only reason why we got into that argument in the first place was because she couldn't get it into her mind that she didn't have to hurt anything! She doesn't have to kill!

And all of that's really going to sink into her head the first time you tell her it after a lifetime of conditioning, isn't it?!

I told her that in our first conversation back on Eos. That she could have a normal life and have friends--which she has here. I thought she was growing away from all that! [looks away] I could've kept a better eye on her, but I didn't...

She is growing away from it, she just needs time.

Did you ever stop and think for a second while you were out their fighting the creatures with her that they might have been other passengers? Or perhaps the missing crew? Haven't heard from them yet and what a better way of putting a muzzle on the whole operation than turning them into mindless drones who attack anything but their master, the Captain! Or perhaps not since he's seemed to have disappeared right along with them.

How would you feel then, hmm? Releasing a human weapon on innocent people who have no idea what's going on with them and have had all their choices taken away from them?! And even if they weren't real people, they were living creatures all the same and no matter who or what they are, they deserve a chance to live.

That's what I tried to explain to her. That she doesn't have to punish them for doing what comes naturally. Yes, they hurt her friend, I understand that--the young man's a close acquaintance of mine and I even warned him to be careful so she's not the only one upset he got hurt--but that is not a reason to go out and kill every single last creature there is! Did you even stop to think that in her rage to punish them, that she could lose sight of herself and kill you or Neil or Oliver right alongside them?! Or everyone else in the maintenance hub?! Where would you draw that line, eh?

You draw it before the blood starts to flow. The best way to not fight a battle is to not have one in the first place.

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